but God loves us anyway.
Pardon my frankness, but I'm pretty pissed off today. I'm pissed off at satan...the master of deceit. I am so sick of his lies. He wants my marriage, my husband, even my son and I'll be damned if I let him have his way!!
I am mad at George. I'm mad at him for being a coward. I'm mad at him for blatantly refusing God's grace. I'm mad at him for deciding that he'd rather leave his family and ignore our pain AND his instead of facing his fears and his sin, accepting forgiveness by repenting and looking to God for his future. God says George is his Beloved, that he has been created in His image, made to reflect his character and his glory...that there is nothing George can do that God cannot forgive. Why is it that some can hear this message and believe it is for them and others hear it but cannot accept that it applies to their lives?
And it is at this point in the conversation in my head that I feel a deep sadness for George. I cannot imagine the pain he is in...I am sure it is greater than my pain. To feel worthless, like a failure, without hope...I don't think I could function. When I pray, I pray that by the blood of Jesus Christ, who offers abundant life, Satan would lose his hold on my husband, that George would know the truth that has been declared over his life and turn away from the liar. I want others to join with me in this prayer because there is great power in the prayer of a believer! I will not lose hope, I will not stop fighting for my family!!
That's it for now. Remember that we're all bastards, adopted by God into his great family.