I keep wanting to post but haven't taken the time to sit down and actually do it.
I cannot believe that yesterday marked 4 weeks since Griffin's death. It seems like time has flown by. I'm doing well. I was depressed for a couple of weeks...lots of fogginess and a feeling of being overwhelmed. So overwhelmed, in fact, that the simplest of decisions were impossible for me to make. The past week has been much better with less fogginess each day. My energy level is closer to normal. Instead of needing to sleep by 1:00 in the afternoon, I feel great until about 7:00 pm and then I sort of hit a wall.
About a week and a half ago I had the idea of cleaning houses for "right now" money to tide me over until my real estate biz takes off again. I use eco-friendly products to clean my own house, so I thought I'd use those products and advertise myself as "green". The more I've thought about it and talked about the idea with friends, the more I think this could be a long term business. So I'm getting it going this week and I'm calling it Green Clean. Catchy, eh? I'm looking for clients...so if you or someone you know is looking for a cleaner house, let me know! I meet with Heather from Fuller on Friday to discuss my plan of action on that front. I'll let you know how it goes.
As for my family, we are doing well. Jackson got moved up to Pre-K at his school because he had already mastered the preschool skills. He seems to enjoy this class much more than the other. He is very intrigued with outer space and his class just happens to be blasting off into space this Friday! George and I met with our old pastor and friend last week for counseling. It was a very good session, very open and honest. My plan is to be separated for at least 6 months and go to couseling once a week during that time in hopes of restoring our marriage. The separation in not a negative thing, I feel it is just as important as counseling. Please continue to pray for healing.
I am currently reading Dietrich Bonhoeffer's The Cost of Discipleship. So much of this book parallels what God has been teaching me. It's not an easy read, I have to be very focused or else I don't absorb the ideas. But I'm definitely enjoying it. I figure God is showing me my sin on such a regular basis (like daily) for a good reason. It's quite humbling...something I haven't been (humble, that is). I'm very eager to be used and I don't have any hopes or aspirations for how God uses me. I just want to make a difference for him. I know there are ways that I am used every day, but I'm feeling there is a clear call on its way.
Anyway, I don't have any life changing insights for you today. I write that with a laugh, because I know that's not what you come here for. So thanks for checking in anyway. :-)