I am on high alert. I'm no dummy, I can feel the enemy attacking from all angles. I'm so sick of him. I get it, you're trying to destroy my family, you're trying to destroy me. Get lost.
I'm doing something now that I've never done until this year. I'm doing my best to double check everything I do with God. I cannot afford to stray from His Word. The truth is, I am paying now for straying for too long. It's painful and hard, but every time I go to the Lord in anguish, in worry, or in fear, He reminds me of His promise to restore me.
Today was a rough day for no particular reason. I cleaned a house this morning and just kept replaying April through August in my mind. I didn't want to and wasn't trying to feel sorry for myself, the memories just kept coming. I was getting sadder and angrier by the minute. And that was followed by the adding up of bills that need to be paid but aren't going to get paid anytime soon. My client's house got a good scrubbing!
When I left, I had about an hour before I needed to pick up Jackson from school so I went to our new place (oh! I keep forgetting to tell you about it...will do), walked to the couch and got on my knees and just let it all out to God. By the end, I was just listening and what He reminded me was that my job is to work like the ants and His promise is that He will bring restoration to my life. Proverbs 6:6-11 & Isaiah 4:2-6
I am SO grateful for the opportunity to clean houses. This is not my dream job, by any means, but this is a way for me to earn good money without having to work an 8-5, dead end job. A JOB could quite possibly kill me. I am just not cut out for hours spent in a cubicle. I really enjoy cleaning my clients' houses and knowing that I just saved them a lot of stress and time. I know how great it is to come home to a clean house...I personally function much better in a clean house than in a dirty one. That said, cleaning is hard work. I have been so sore that I cannot walk normally. And I am going to have to pick up a few more clients to make ends meet. If you think about it, please pray for mega-strength and energy.
I'm also plunging into real estate this weekend. I'm doing 2 open houses, getting my website back up and running, and sending out marketing to all of my contacts. I know I need to work hard and then see what God has planned. Will you also please pray that I use my time wisely and that I'm able to start working with some buyers pretty quickly?
So back to being on high alert. It is sad that it took such a big smack on the bum for me to realize that I need to be on high alert. It is so clear that throughout God's Word, He is asking us to seek Him in ALL things. He gives us a very clear guide for living an abundant life. I don't mean a life without hard times. I mean a guilt-free, freedom-filled life. As Psalm 34:4-5 says:
I prayed to the Lord, and he answered me,
freeing me from all my fears.
Those who look to Him for help will be radiant with joy;
no shadow of shame will darken their faces.
Radiant with joy. No shame. Thank you for this promise, Lord! It reminds me that my work is not only in cleaning houses and selling real estate, but also in seeking my Lord's will for me and being obedient. My job is to read His Word...His LIVING Word that is new everytime my eyes fall upon it and to enscribe it on my heart and live by it.
Okay, I cannot believe that I keep forgetting to post this! Jackson and I have been blessed with a place to live rent-free!! Our friend, Scott, who was in our wedding has a house here in Castle Rock that he bought a couple of years ago. His plan was to slowly remodel it and then sell it for a tidy profit. Well last month he tore his bicep while fishing in Hawaii (you've GOT to meet this guy) and so he can't do any remodeling for at least the next 6 months. He's not living in the house and offered it to George to live there rent-free. George passed along the offer to me and Jackson and we are moving in this week. We are SO excited. It is perfect for our needs and I am so grateful to Scott and to God for this amazing blessing. My hope is that by the first of the year, I'll be able to give Scott some rent and bless him that way. So thanks for praying, y'all!!