I have been cleaning a lot of houses, which is a huge blessing, but I sure have been worn out! Yesterday I slept straight from 10:00 pm to 8:00 am...I guess I was tired. I'm hoping to use the long weekend to finish unpacking boxes and get things a little more organized.
Jackson is spending Thanksgiving with George. I had a dream last night about my doctor at UVA, who was assisting Griffin's birth and was my primary doctor. And today I kept having short flashbacks to the day I had him. I guess it's just hitting me that this special, thankful day is going to be different. Just different. You know, I am truly grateful for so much in my life, especially for second chances, forgiveness, grace, fresh starts, etc. I guess that perhaps I was so anxious to get the heck out of Virginia and back to Colorado that I didn't take enough time to say good-bye. I don't want to relive that period of my life, but I do think that someday I will need to go back for some closure. Anyway...I think that as I enjoy time with close friends tomorrow, I will also be grieving.
THANK YOU all for praying for me and this divorce process. George and I met in court on Monday and were given the date for our decree of dissolution: January 7th, 2008. All of our forms must be filed with the court by December 7th. I will be having the forms looked over by an attorney to be sure we haven't missed anything.
As I sit here, thinking of all that has been on my heart lately, I especially remember the story of a single mom with 3 kids who lives in a rescue mission in CA. She was an addict but successfully went through the mission's recovery program and is now in her 1st semester of college. She said that with Jesus Christ in her life, no matter what her circumstances may be, she knows she is whole, that she is okay, and she will make it. I am so thankful that the life that Jesus offers is not circumstantial. It defies the obvious. It redefines who we are. It truly does set us free.
It is my hope that my story will be used to ignite a radical change in the lives of those who hear it. A change that comes from knowing that God is the author of life. That who we are in him is as good as it gets. That he IS the one and only. All of our wants and needs are satisfied by him alone. His love is not circumstantial. He meets us where we are. He meets us right where we are.
I am thankful for: Jackson, petite syrah, natural Cheetos, sunshine, mountains, blogs, hot water, modal pajamas, digital cameras, free PCS to PCS minutes, mascara, God's Word, people who are smarter than me, people who are kinder than me, people who are more creative than me, doctors with excellent bedside manner, 400 thread count sheets, coffee, real friends, heated seats, microfiber cloths, indoor plumbing, loving family, Mercy Me, Plum Creek Community Church, and diet Coke. Oh, and Tokyo Joe's!