My heart broke the other night. I was at a friend's house with some other girlfriends for dinner. I prayed on my way to my friend's house that the night would be a time of good conversation and that those of us who know Jesus would be a light to the 2 who don't.
I was SO SAD when one of my Christian friends dropped the F bomb. Another C friend talked about a drunken one night stand. The two made excuses for each other. I felt uncomfortable, thinking about Jesus being right there with us. I thought about the trials the 2 had been through and how they cried, Lord! Lord!, and He rescued them. Oh, how quickly they betrayed Him.
I remember when my faith was like that. I ran to God as a last resort and quickly deserted Him as soon as things calmed down. I didn't know how much He wanted me, all of me. I didn't know how much I needed Him, all the time. I didn't think about His pain on the Cross, ever. So selfish.
My sadness is for my friends and their lack of faith. They are still prisoners of their sin. I pray with a heavy heart that God will continue to give me obstacles that send me to my knees in prayer.
A few years ago, my aunt and I were talking about money. I said something like, "Well, everyone wants to be a millionaire!". And she seriously said, "I do not want to be a millionaire." I didn't believe her at the time. Now I do. I also do not want to be a millionaire. I am clinging to my God because life is still not easy. Hey, it's easier than it was. I'm paying the bills and putting (good) food on the table. But my future rests in His hands. He is my Lord. He is in charge. I gave Him the reins a while ago. I trust Him. He is faithful. He loves me. He blesses me beyond measure!
So, do you call Him Lord? Do you treat Him as Lord? Do you treat His Word as a gift? Or do you abuse grace?
Paul confronted Peter when he was being a hypocrite. I want to have a conversation with my friends about the other night. I'm afraid. I'm a peace maker so I want to figure out how to say what I need to say without offending anyone and bringing everyone closer. Hmmm. That's pretty much all about me and zilch about God. I know God will give me the right words, with a soft heart, at just the right time.